Ugh, part 2

Now Jonah is sick. This has been the worst month for illnesses, at least one of us has been sick every day. Jonah started throwing up around 2:30pm and has been puking nearly constantly since. I've changed my shirt 7 times. Strange thing is he's not acting sick at all. He scrunches up his face, turns red, retches and pukes, then a quick cuddle and wipe up and he's fine again:



Doesn't look too sick does he?

And... we bought flooring! 18 cases of cherry glueless clic laminate flooring. I'm so excited! It's the first real renovation since we bought this place!

Ugh

This morning the small scab has morphed into a giant pus-filled bump. It hurts so much I can scarcely wear a shirt. This is a pretty profound test of my resolve to breastfeed at least a year. At least I know I can nurse Jonah on the one side only for a day or so and he'll still get enough.

Sick and tired of being sick and tired.

Oh my aching nipple. I have no idea what to do about this - my right nipple hurts so badly I cry nursing Jonah. There's only a small scab, nothing to suggest how incredibly much it hurts. I can't tell if it's mastitis but dammit I'm exhausted and nauseous and dragged out all of the time - would I notice a difference? I know I should see someone about it but I have no one who can watch Katie for even an hour until Friday.

I've made a second digital image composition, this one featuring Rachel in a field of flowers with fairy wings. I think it's cute. Not professional quality but good enough for me for now. Perhaps after a few tutorials I'll be ready to do better work. Here's a tiny version of it:



Countdown to my new flooring! I think we're going to buy it from a place in St-Isadore, it's a bit of a drive but it's a fair bit cheaper than Home Depot. I'm so excited! We've lived with this crappy, ugly, stained carper long enough, I can't wait for fresh wood flooring and nice paint on the wall! Less than 2 weeks now!

The prodigal blogger

Not very religious about this blogging am I?

It's been a strange two weeks, lots of small changes in my online world. I've left my former forum home, maybe for good, maybe not, I don't know.

The little ones are recovering from colds and Kate has some sort of stomach virus now. I feel so sorry for her tired feverish little soul - until she starts that incessant whining. It's hard to baby your baby when you want to strangle her (just kidding, but that whining does make me want to rip my hair out).

I have sinusitis. Never had it before but damn it hurts like a SOB! I'm living hour to hour on ibuprofen, taking antibiotics and wondering if the antibiotics could have given me thrush since one of my nipples is so sore I can't even nurse that side. When it rains, it pours.

Frig I hate computers.

What a weekend. Katie is sick, and she never gets quiet sick. She's been whiny, clingy, screamy, temperamental sick. Plus she's still afraid to poop in the potty so with the sickness I've had a dozen or so messes to clean up (and no help thankyouverymuch). Now that she's infected her little brother too I wonder if I'll ever sleep again.

C left for his cousin's funeral at 8:30am on Sat and didn't get back home until after 10pm! I'm so thankful we didn't all go, I can't imagine having two sick babies and two bored preteens driving for 6 hours, standing around a (very small) funeral home, plus the language barrier...

In happier news Jonah is standing alone, only for a minute to 90 seconds at a time but wow! My little tiny baby isn't so tiny anymore!

C's cousin died yesterday so today has been a maelstrom of organizing, debating and deciding. The final (I think it's final) decision is I'll stay home with the kidlets while he makes the almost 3 hour drive to St-Antoine-Sur-Richelieu, probably with his sister and aunt. I'm sort of relieved, I feel badly that he won't have me to lean on but at least we won't have to worry about the kids acting up during the service, or about finding someone to watch them all day long.

On other fronts I think I'm officially sick of the drama at my usual online haunt. It just makes me realize that the internet is a good place for thinking you know someone better than you do. *sigh* I don't know whether to keep going there or just cut my losses. I've invested 7 months of my life there. Perhaps a few days break is in order, help me to decide what I want to do.

So I've decided to blog. Like I don't already spend enough time in front of the computer.

It's a gorgeous sun-shiny day, the kids are being well behaved and I even treated myself to an 1100 calorie lunch at McDs. I'm almost caught up on all of my commitments so I'm feeling fairly calm. Now if I could just get the house in shape everything would be perfect. Tomorrow, there's always tomorrow.